The endless wait

Waiting for my turn at the maternity hospital. But no my wait is different from most women here.
While I check out these women with various tummy sizes, I notice them checking me out with a flat one.

It's unfair that the fertility section should be on the same place as the maternity hospitals. Makes you stand out like a sore thumb, makes you go 'Why Me!!!'. Does this ever end!!!

Yeah yeah... I know I wrote the previous post wondering if not having kids was a blessing in disguise. So what!!! The wind blows in all directions.

Mom and Me

I remember soon after my wedding, my Mom was very disappointed by the fact that I never called her to ask for a recipe. She was sad that she has been brutally replaced by technology, google in this case.

She visited us recently once we moved in to the new house, after 7 years. BTW did I mention that we finally moved in to a house that we can call our own and pay the property taxes. Yipee to that!!!
Just to set up the context, I am not the chatty types, not the one that can discuss my whole day, friends or TV serials with my Mom. I am glad she found that in my SIL what she couldn't find in her daughter. I normally have 30 seconds call with her, mostly twice a day. She has a standard question bank with generic questions:

• Did you have your food?
• When did you reach/return from office?
• When did Db reach/return from office?

etc..you get the drill!!!

But now that she visited us recently and has been a part of our life for 15 days, her question bank is updated:

• Did Ra****ta (my cook) come?
• Did S*ni* (my maid) come?
• Check if the maid has kept the kitchen window open?
• Did she keep the kitchen towel on the gas knob again?
• Make sure you lock the balcony door

Makes me wonder, how much she misses being a part of our life.
My Mom is a typical example of a woman whose life revolved around her children. Now that we are not around, she looks very lost, does not know what to do with her time, where to direct her concerns to. I see her sitting in the balcony and singing by herself, suddenly getting extremely religious spending hours together in the temple...she looks lonely and completely lost.

I do not have kids today, but I have hope. Yet I wonder, is not having kids such a bad thing, is it a blessing in disguise. I can't imagine a life like my Mom. Giving your whole life to your kids and watch them moving on with their own life, a life of which the parents are no more a part of.

Probably Db is right, the ROI (Return Of Investment) on kids is very very low...sad but true. We have done the same to our parents and our kids will do the same or worse with us. May be it's not such a bad thing after all.